I am here because I need some help.
Since 2013 I became interested in magic,spells,paranormal/supernatural,witchcraft,mediums,ghosts,powers,etc
I read articles, books and I did a lot of researching about these subjects.
I should tell you that I didn't use an ouija board, I didn't cast spells or invocate a demon ever.
So,let's get started!
Since 2015 my experienced intesified.
I have experienced deja vu quite often.
I can't sleep at night because I am afraid of the dark. I can sense a presence in my room. I see shadows everywhere in my room. I think it's not a bad spirit, but I am not sure.
I know just that it's always here, watching me.
I should mention that my twin sister died at 2 days after we were born.
I can't say for sure if it's her watching or someone else.
Sometimes (like yesterday evening for example) I can feel the presence behind me and when I turn back it's nothing. Just before I turn back I feel a cold shiver spreading in my entire body.
No poltergeist activities, no ghosts seen or something bad happened yet.
Other things that happened to me lately:
Besides deja vu, I experienced dreams that came true, but rarely.
I sometimes know how the persons I come in contact feel on the inside.
I made progresses in when telling someone is lying, because I just feel it.
Also,I know what my friends are thinking or are about to say and I say it before or in the moment they say it.
I also know when somebody in my family falls on the ground or is hurt.
For example, my mother fell on the ice on day. She didn't told me about it.
When she came from it was 10 pm.
I told her: "This morning when you arrived at work you were carrying something and you fell on the ground because of the glazed frost (ice,you know, when snow froze),didn't you?
It was 7:05 in the morning.
She nodded with amazement. "How did you know?"
"I told you yesterday that you must be careful because you will fall.Didn't I? "
But I can do more than sensing when someone is hurt.
I often could tell who's calling or if I will have a bad or good day.
How I do that?
I just close my eyes and see colours,numbers,faces,even actions for a few seconds.
I dream about all kind of stuff, sometimes about events, places or persons, about myself or about people I don't know or that I know.
I even have some dreams that lasts for a few minutes, usually 1-2-3 minutes about everything from a cemetery to a room.
Most of the time I don't remember my dreams, even when I want to. I should keep a dream diary.
On the other hand, yesterday I experienced something new.
I was leaning in my bed when I felt some kind of electric vibes in my fingers. It felt amazing. All day I could feel shivers/thrills/chills iI don't know what they are, but they aren't cold.
It was like electricity spreading in my body.
Like you wear something for a long time and when you take it off it electrifies and you feel it.
I also hear my name called by voices, sometimes in my mind, sometimes when I am home or outdoors. I never answer.
NEXT I WILL TELL YOU AN REAL WORLD EXPERIENCE (I wasn't dreaming) I HAD LAST NIGHT:
Last night I was desperately trying to fall asleep.
I woke up at 4:00 am if I remember right.
I saw shadows again, as always, but this time I think I saw a human-shaped one. It might be just my imagination this time.
One thing you must know: I always see a girl with dark eyes and dark long hair.She's pale and is wearing a long hospital dress... You know, that thing you put on when you are a patient.
I know that whenever I close my eyes or even when I don't I see her.
I think she is good. She never scared me like a ghost. She just stare at me.
I am no more afraid of her because at the beggining I was. She looks like the girl with hair on the face in the horror movies but she doesn't have scars,traumas,sadistic smile or claws or something scary.
Lately I begin to think that is my sister. She doesn't talk to me or smile, but I know she is good. At least, I hope I am right. Probably (I don't know where this thought came from) my sister appears like so because she is not allowed by god to appear as an angel or she doesn't want me to see her real appearance because she doesn't want to hurt me or something.
Let's just say the "human-shaped shadow" scared me, I turned on the light, it disappear. I prayed. I closed my eyes, I saw a demonic face, but that happens all the time. (I try not to be scared when it happens) So, I just see it and then I saw a light bubble... I think it was an orb.
I visualised it growing, and it grew. Then I saw an angel for a few seconds.
Then "You are safe" popped in my mind.
After that, I closed my eyes and I saw an orb again.
This time, I wanted to grow so much I can enter inside.
I focused and I entered the orb.
I felt safer than ever.
That night (before and after the incident) I had a feeling like I was floating.
No,better I say that I felt my body levitate for a few seconds numerous times during the night.
It was like a strange astral projection likely maybe? I don't know. But I could see another me above my body. I even saw me above me... If you can understand.
So,now the questions.
1.Am I a psychic?
2.What do you think is my power?
3.What do you think is that presence I feel and the girl?
4.Why I see demonic faces? I think the devil wants me to not use my powers or the devil is upset because I can use my powers for good things and he is trying to scare me. Or maybe demons don't want people to know about their existence.
5.What about the angel and the "you're safe now" thing and orbs?
Thank you for your time and please give me some advice because I need it.