I just read a young girls story about knowing who she's going to marry. It was very interesting and reading a line made me think about my experience. She said she felt her soul and his were meant to be near one another. I feel something like that towards a boy I met when I was young. But not in a romantic or sexual way. Yet more than platonic. It's very confusing, but I've felt that way since I met him. When we first met we were pretty close. Not in a "sharing all of our secrets" way. What I felt with him isn't something that's happened again. I love the boyfriend I have now and he makes me feel a special connection as with the boy.
With the boy though, it feels stronger. But the next year after we met we didn't talk much. He did seem to go out of his way to say hi to me though. Still, after that we didn't talk, other than greetings. I don't think he ever felt the same way. Or at least that's where my mind likes to go. The last year we went to school together he didn't even say hi. I regret a lot in my life, but not being the first to say just "Hi!" is one of the top regrets. And it seems so silly, so ridiculous. I've had dreams of him that later happened. I may have mentioned it in my other story. He was one of the main subjects in my precognitive dreams.
I still think about him to this day. And I care so much about his wellbeing. I've always hoped he'd live happy, healthy, and long. I still feel that way. With all my heart. But I also feel sad. That he moved away. That I couldn't talk to him even though it would have been so easy. It was like he understood me and wanted my attention in the beginning. I felt I understood him too. I felt that my spirit lightened every single time I spoke with him. It's such a light and happy feeling.
Which wasn't something I felt a lot, especially growing up. And that right there is what makes me think maybe I'm crazy? Maybe what I feel is just a byproduct of not getting enough love? But then I think about it again. About him. And it makes me think, that maybe, soulmates really exist and he is one of them...
Thanks for reading! I'm sorry that it's pretty ramble-y. And for the over used words. Please do comment your thoughts about this!