I know it has been a while since I last posted a story. I had taken some time to learn and try to understand my gifts God has given me. Needless to say, I still have a lot to learn, but I'm sure none of us will ever find all the answers, at least in this lifetime. I definitely have had a lot more to work with this year, especially with all the activity arising in my home, but the way I look at it, perhaps overcoming this is my next obstacle I need to go through to get to the next level. I guess in all good time, I will know for sure. So for now I will seek, learn and listen for God's direction.
For quite a while now, at times, I have been experiencing something which I have yet to understand and find answers for. I'm not even sure how to exactly describe what it is I'm seeing, but will try my best. At times I have been seeing a mass of something and wonder if it is energy related. It is dark with a touch of flowing silver and is normally about apple size, but not exactly round. I can actually watch it float across the room straight head on until it disappears. During these times, I feel a presence. Recently I saw this mass again and watched it as it floated across the room to the back side of my son's bed to the corner of the wall, until again, it disappeared. I felt them the entire time standing there as they were listening to me, my oldest son and my son's friend conversation. I glanced over to where they were standing once in a while without making it obvious to my son so I didn't scare his friend. While we were talking, my son told me he can feel them watching him sometimes when he is trying to go to bed. He told me he had told them to show themselves one night. He was basically trying to prove his feelings were correct. Again quickly glancing back over at that corner, I told my son not to request that again and that he may see something he may not want to see. My oldest son has had an experience with a spirit when younger as well. He saw a spirit of a young boy just passing through right out the window. But my feelings on the girl here are not so good, as I spoke of this in my last story and I wanted to avoid him seeing what my youngest son and I have seen. Anyway, the next morning my son came into the kitchen and told me he spoke too soon that night. Both spirits appeared to him that night. I must say, both my oldest and youngest handle themselves quite well for what they have both experienced. He said he could see the outline of the man who was surrounded by white light. The woman/child which stood about the same height was surrounded in a black shadow. They stood there staring at him and watching him which he said was for about ten minutes. He said it was creepy, but he turned the television on and just ignored the two of them until they both left. They appeared to him in that same spot of his room I had sensed them and seen that mass.
As most know here, spirits also come to me while I am in the between state during sleep. This is when I can clearly think, communicate and see them even easier. My lights always flicker beforehand, letting me know what is to come that night. More or less, letting me know they are here. This is also a time when I do get some future knowledge, but I normally get that while I'm awake. It's been a little different lately though. I've had some really twisted nightmares that always seem to involve this child, so she makes everyone want to think she is anyway. I am clearly thinking during these episodes and wonder if she is the cause of them. Why not just tell me what she wants, which I'm sure I already have an idea. Why so secretive? Even the man stands back, only helping when he can, although I'm sure she has something to do with it. After all, this activity arrived after she followed me here. I cannot put some of the things I've dreamt here since there are young ones on here, they are too morbid. In one of them I was in a dark basement of some sort. These places are always dark. My family was there and one boy I've never met. He screamed from the other room. I told my family to stay put and went to the child to learn a doll was talking to him. (Mind you, when this all started, my son complained that one action figure doll he had watched him and moved its eyes. Just another thing she used to play with my head, I suppose). I kicked the doll and grabbed the boy to move him so he wouldn't be cornered. I then tried casting her out while she transformed and grew into a child. Meanwhile my head started spinning really bad like a drunk feel. (She has done this to me before while talking to another on how I was planning to remove her). She laughed at me and pointed in a most wicked tone. I let fear come over me and stepped back. Then thought, "What am I doing"? I stepped forward and went at it again feeling more powerful and stern. She began to lose her strength and was starting to transform back. I woke up before I could finish and have no clue why. I was still pumped up and ready to take her out. I was actually disappointed.
I've had another experience while meditating one night, which was also a new one for me. I was concentrating on putting the white light in me, when suddenly, I was looking at my room perfectly clear, as if laying there with my eyes wide open, which they weren't. I could see the entire room even though my head was facing only one side of it. It wasn't like any visions I've had in the past, but it was like I was lying there in the present seeing things as they were. Not soon afterwards, a dark shadow came quickly into the room floating over the tread mill to directly above my son while my son focused playing X-box on-line, totally unaware of what was going on. Then not thinking, my eyes flew open while I was ready to respond to the situation. Then poof, I couldn't see a dag-gone thing. I sat there for a while thinking, "Now what"? Nothing else seemed to happen afterwards.
I'm not exactly sure how I did what I did while meditating, but would like to figure it out and practice. I know more meditation will help, but need to know where that focus came from. This could take me to a whole new level when dealing with spirits. At least I'll be able to see what I'm dealing with while awake when I throw myself back into that state. Also if anyone knows what these masses are, I would love to know what it is I'm seeing. For a while I kept dismissing this thinking I was letting my eyes get to me. I know people "normally" see black and white dots and such and that is why I tried dismissing it, however, this is different. Again, my thinking and how I view some things, has proved me wrong.