Any guidance would be great right now, so please, if you have an opinion on the matter comment.
My name will go unmentioned, and so will his. I've had a boyfriend for almost 3 yrs, someone I loved more than anything else in the world. We planned to get married after college, and we spent every waking hour together.
And then something changed. I felt different all of a sudden, like I could live for myself instead of for him. I'm spiritual, and when I looked deep down I found that I felt a need to live on my own for a while, but, determined as I was to have that life we'd always dreamed of, I decided to ignore the feeling.
Big mistake. My feelings for him have evaporated into a caring feeling of that of a best friend. This has happened over the past week, as I've cried my heart out trying to think of something to do. I feel like there's a block on my emotions to him. I can't feel anything when I think of the memories we've shared, and nothing comes surging back when he kisses me or says he loves me.
Upon all of this, my gifts are rising. I noticed that when I'd finished crying I could see the outline of white aura around my hand more clearly. Studying the air, I noticed that I could see the energy moving much clearer, and I almost found the outlines of what I believe to be my spirit guides. Images are flickering in the corner of my eyes, and my sense of intuition is higher than before.
Why should I have to choose love over gifts? I never got a choice, its as if my soul picked on its own. It automatically blocked my feelings as soon as I'd decided to ignore my deeper feeling of need to be alone.
We've pretty much broken up, and I can't seem to stop crying. Love doesn't just switch off. I've discovered that he's probably my karmatic soul mate because I've learned so much from him, but how is it right for him? He loves me too. It's killing him. And me.
Sorry for complaining, I just needed to know what's going on, why my gifts are intensifying all of a sudden. Please leave your thoughts here,
Blessed Be to all