I am 19 years old. I am an empath I believe. My earliest memory of this was when I was about 4 or 5. I was sitting in the middle of my grandmas patio playing with toys. My entire family was sitting around me chatting. All of a sudden I looked up and everyone was staring at me. No one was talking anymore, but I could tell what they were thinking and feeling. I remember feeling very strange.
When I was still really young another thing I remember is waking up and seeing the sunlight through the window but to my left I saw what I still can't explain. I saw a lions head floating next to my bed it was white and clear, almost shiny, and was slowly rotating. I watched it revolve, and saw the back of its head and around to the front again. It was very peaceful and didn't frighten me at all, but then it went away. I wonder what in the world I was seeing or if it means something.
I can feel emotions to the point were I sometimes I know exactly what someones going to say before it's said. Sometimes when I am in a room full of people I get very overwhelmed by the energy I pick up from them. I thought maybe I was claustrophobic but I'm really not. A couple times I've had to leave the room and clear my head. I could be a great psychologist though! I see thin auras around people if I concentrate. I have learned how to control situations with the emotions I project, sometimes it's scary how easily I can influence people. I have noticed I can pull energy not only from people but from the energy in a room. I can focus it through my hands. I have wondered if I should look into healing and what steps I would have to take?
Once in a deep conversation with an ex boyfriend I asked him to turn around and put my hands about an inch or two away from his back. I started projecting energy from the room through my hands, they got very warm. He said he could feel it! He was able to tell me where my hands were on his back when I finished. It was like an energy massage! Very cool.
What does scare me though is always feeling like someones watching me and I get random chills all the time. When my boyfriends and me moved into our apartment I thought I could see a white bald old man floating close to the ceiling one night, my cats were always looking up their. We moved after my boyfriend started hearing little girls laughing. When I was little I thought I could see an old man out of the corner of my eye in the hallway but I'd look again and no one was there. Another time my friend of 15 years brought me with on a trip to see her family and while I was sleeping she saw an old man above where we were. I wonder if a bad spirit has been following me around all my life.
So can anyone tell me what the lions head could be or mean? I'd really like to advance... Any suggestions?
Are the chills nothing? And is there a way to get rid of negative energy? Any comments welcome!