As a very young child I have always spoken to myself loudly when I am alone and I still do until today. If someone was to observe me, they would think I have lost the plot, because I talk to myself as though I am having a proper conversation with myself just like I do with anyone else. I never understood this, but feel very comfortable doing it.
In the past 6 months, I have started to experience things out of the extraordinary. It all started one night when I was in deep sleep, and all of a sudden, I feel as though I am consciously aware that I am in deep sleep, and that my head is starting to shake. I could hear a really loud noise (a noisy machinery) and when I closed my eyes I felt as though I saw lights and colours and that I was zooming into something. This really scared me, so I tried to wake up and move, however, I could not move at all. My body had become very numb and I could not even shout or speak; only my eyes could move. It all lasted for a few minutes. Now, as this has never happened to me, I was really left with a confused mild headache, thinking what was this? The same thing has now been happening to me more frequently and I am now starting to believe as though these may be Out of Body Experiences (OBE).
For the past few months, I have started seeing random images of people doing various things. When I experience the images, I am consciously aware and awake, and so these are not dreams. The images do not last long, they just jump from one image to another and I have no idea as to who these people are. But when I do have these images, I feel as though I can perfectly sense where the people are, for example, if they are at the bus stop, at a club, and so on, even though I cannot see where they are.
All the above experiences, started to scare me and I became very frightened. As a result, I had months of sleepless nights as I thought I was being watched by someone and or that someone was in the room with me. So I had to always sleep with the light on, but even when the light was on, I still felt very scared and felt as though I need to keep my eyes opened, or else I might see a ghost. I had become very sad and very angry due to the lack of sleep which started affecting me with my personal life, work life and my family.
Only, in the last couple of months have I started to believe in Angels and Spirit Guides and the more I am talking to them and asking for help, the more I am starting to have spiritual and psychic experiences and importantly receiving help. My faith in spirituality is increasing and I have recently started attending a Spiritualist Church. As soon as entered the Church, I felt at immediate peace and felt as though I was meant to go there. I have had some healing sessions at the Church and the mediums at the Church told me that I should always protect myself with either a purple blanket or a red and gold blanket in order for me to sleep better. And I have to say that I am sleeping much better than before (touch wood!) and I feel I have received answers to my various questions and doubts.
I have attended the Psychic Circle at the Church only twice, but felt as though I have learned a great deal. Recently, I was having a conversation with my younger sister who is having some problems at school. When she initially started to talk to me, I was not sure as to what I should advise her or tell her to make her feel better, as she was feeling very very down. But, all of a sudden, it was like a miracle, I started to tell her so much and she was amazed and so shocked as to how I knew some much about the situation. I had never imagined that I could sense so much in my life, but I was at peace when I was telling her and it felt as though I was being used as a voice to give her messages from God.
After the very long conversation, my sister felt a sense of tranquility and inner happiness and she said I am so glad I spoke to you. The feelings I got after helping my sister was so divine and phenomenal. I am very sure that it was my Guides and Angels helping me. I thank them.
Turning back to what I began writing about, I think have now started to understand that perhaps I have always talked to me guides and angels but without realizing it and that I am indirectly talking to them. And I could sit here writing pages and pages about my every little experiences, but what I have written above is an overall picture of what I have experienced.
I would appreciate all your comments on this and your thoughts as to what you think could be happening to me as I still feel quite doubtful and confused. Thank you for reading this. Amen.