Is it possible for a person to harness both Light and Darkness at once?
I've been having trouble with this one for years. For a while, I've had my morals and standards on life, and I strode to abide by them. As long as I am in a good mood, everything around me goes according to plan, and people feel compelled to be around me. However, in times where my anger poses to be a problem, everything just crashes. I can cause a lot of destruction to the general area indirectly, because my thoughts are sometimes carried out by others. But in the times that I actually handle the situation myself, I've been told that I look like a monster. Most people who catch me on a good day will claim to see me as an angel, due to how selfless and kind I am. However, in that same instance, I've had someone get sick after watching me destroy a whole house by myself as a kid. I know that my mind is a constant battlefield, and I see the two entities clashing. And in the physical realm, when I am hurt, the darker side of me takes over to protect myself, making me stronger and faster than I was before. My friends are scared to be around me while I am in my "alter ego" mode, because I literally make the atmosphere dark around me. How do I go about handling this?
Because I am fighting for the Good, but if the power of darkness is also a part of me,
Then can't I find a way to use it for a good cause as well? Right now I feel like Cecil from final fantasy dissidia. He switches back and forth to use different abilities, although his allegiance never wavers. Is that possible for me?
And if so, how?