I'm seeking some advice from someone who has been down this path before me... Just recently I have discovered that I am an empath. At least I think this is what is happening to me. I have always been able to feel so many things that other people don't. I can't read thoughts in words, or facts, but I just seem to know automatically what someone means. I know what they are feeling and what I need to do or say to make them happy, or feel better. I have always attracted odd people, and even though I am a very quiet person, all kinds of personalities are attracted to me and seem to want to tell me everything. People open up to me naturally.
What I need help with is this: I feel other people's pain. Their headaches, their sprains, all of their physical disorders. I was diagnosed with fybromyalgia last year because of the following symptoms: I was exhausted. I ached all over my body for no reason, I suffered from headaches and very high and low mood swings, I couldn't get a grip on who I was or what I was doing, and it wreaked havoc on my life. I would get up in the morning and be absolutely drained of energy by noon.
Then I began to connect the dots and realized that the pain I was feeling, was the exact same pain the person next to me was feeling...
Am I crazy? I have always believed in the unbelievable, and have always searched for the truth. I think I have stumbled upon something, a reason for all the hurt that doctor after doctor was never able to diagnose.
Now, whenever I go into a place with many people, such as a store (it is especially bad in large crowds) I go through sometimes up to ten different symptoms within an hour. The more people there are, the more emotions I experience.
I feel like my emotional connection with the people I love the most is the strongest. One night I suddenly burst into tears and couldn't stop. My best friend kept asking me, "What is it? What's wrong?" and I kept repeating, "I don't know... I don't know..." Then I got a flash of something, I saw a light under a door in my mind, and my little sister crying as she was huddled against a wall in the dark. I tried as hard as I could to reach out to her with whatever I could. I haven't seen her in months. I haven't talked to her in weeks. And I spent a lot of my childhood crying in the dark, listening under a door, too. When my best friend shook me "awake", I had been staring into space for a good three minutes. I felt like I had reached her somehow.
Within the next minute, my friend and I were laughing and playing around, and I felt very happy inside, although my friend was a little confused. It's obvious what this kind of emotional roller coaster can do to relationships that aren't strong.
I feel so blessed, so thrilled to be able to even glimpse a little of this spiritual world. I guess I always knew it was there, in the back of my mind. It is so exciting to begin to understand that there is a deeper meaning to everything we do.
What I'm asking for is this... Has someone else felt this way? What has helped you become stronger, and deal with the barrage of information pelting you? Is there a way to selectively use this ability, and to protect myself from what I feel is a pelting hailstorm right now? Is there a way to keep from getting physically sick every day of my life? I hope so...
Most importantly, how do I learn to use what I have just discovered to help the people around me?