I met someone online. I thought he was amazing, very smart, interesting and quite possibly the best looking guy I've ever seen. I remember seeing his picture and thinking, "oh my god, this is the one".
But the online world is the online world. Things aren't what they seem and anyone I've ever met has NEVER turned out to be the way that I thought they would be. I've never fancied myself seriously thinking of us being together. Still, I struck up a conversation with him and we corresponded for a while.
I found myself sort of falling for him but ended up doing an immature thing by insulting him and cutting off communication. I couldn't handle the feelings I was experiencing. I was sort of becoming obsessed.
Is this in my head? I feel like we're joined at the brain. There's something about his voice that's so familiar. I kind of get everything he believes in and he has alluded to feeling the same way about me. It's not as if I don't meet people in the everyday or that there aren't men that live near me that I could get together with. In fact I have tried to date and none of these relationships ever works out. And they don't work out for silly or non-sensical reasons. It's as if fate is doing something to me here.
His presence is always with me. Always. But we haven't talked in ages. We ended things off on an embarrassing note.
I can't get him out of my head. I'm wondering what this is all about. It's torturing me because this has been going on FOR TWO YEARS.
I'm posting on this forum out of desperation because I need to move on. Am I imagining this connection? Is he thinking about me as well? I really can't go on like this and maybe I need someone to tell me this is in my head and give me advice on how to overcome this because I can't take it anymore.
It's really come to this. Why can't he get out of my thoughts? It's like I talk to him all day long in my brain. It feels weird but natural at the same time.
Please help me.