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Emotionless Power?

 

I'm just wondering how this works.

I have been chronically depressed for over 8 years. While it gradually got worse, I learned that I could stuff my emotions inside myself and not have to face them. So here I am, a shell of a man. I have had so much practice hiding what I feel that I have a pause every time an emotion should be surging through me, long enough to logically analyze whether or not to allow myself to feel that.

I know that emotions fuel Magick, especially because every time my emotions get out, the wind picks up immensely. I also know that I am exceedingly more powerful than most Mages (I've met a few).

So then, how can I have this much Power while my emotions are sealed within me? Is that increasing it, by building that fuel on top of itself, with nowhere to go?

I just don't understand. Typically I keep emotion as far away from my spells as possible, and they work fine. So I guess this is actually a question of if emotional "fuel" is consumed (or spent, released) when using it to cast a spell. If yes, then I would have a nearly limitless reserve supply which could explain my advantage. If not, then a new question is asked: "Must an emotion be felt for it to affect the spell, or merely present?" If merely present is the answer, then I again have an explanation.

What are your opinions? Is my Power increased by my emotional blockade? Or am I actually holding myself back? Or (probably the more common opinion), am I just certifiably insane, this "Power" being an illusion stemming my disorder? Or perhaps I'm just thinking too highly of myself, actually being surmountingly weaken than most?

All comments are welcome.

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MageMagikh (4 posts)
 
6 years ago (2014-02-07)
You might be a mage, but I dought with your questions you know anything about mages. Try to look on the bright side, one day you might meet one. A mage has full control of their abilities and has too many to count. There is something called an awakening - not a spiritual awakening, but a magickal awakening. It sounds to me like your not in control yet. So, just wait... Only time will tell.
psychic_randy (19 posts)
 
7 years ago (2012-06-12)
Sometimes emotions can help you, and sometimes they just get in the way. I don't exactly know how to explain it.
ONIpsychic (1 stories) (17 posts)
 
7 years ago (2012-04-26)
[at] sini42. No problem? I guess it's good to have inspiration, even it comes in such a weird way. I am wondering though, what have your studies concluded?
Sini42 (15 stories) (17 posts)
 
7 years ago (2012-04-24)
Hello ON1Psychic, I wanted to present to you a thank you, because after reading your text, the issue of the effect of emotions into psychics views has given me many new good teachings to learn and observe in heart. This is this site at its best: we share. We give, we get -all that with good will in heart. Wishing you and all taking part in this particular conversation a lovely spring and greetings from Scandinavia!
ONIpsychic (1 stories) (17 posts)
 
7 years ago (2012-04-24)
Thanks for the advice all - though most of this I've considered or stated in my story (except Mubashir >.>) -, but no one seems to be answering my question.

As for balancing emotions... I have a barrier I must pass first that happens to be a very stubborn woman. If I can make peace with her, perhaps my heart will be at peace as well, and my emotions to follow. Maybe.
DAYDREAMER95 (12 stories) (52 posts)
 
7 years ago (2012-04-24)
Look I don't practice magic, but I can tell you this. Bottling your emotions will destroy your soul. I tried to and am still trying to reconnect with my emotions, which is really hard. I used to be a kind, caring, compassionate guy. And after a while emotions got annoying (I am an empath) and so I bottle them away. Now I don't care about a lot of things, and have a rather sinister sense of humor. It leads to a dark path that I am struggling to get out of. I have never done anything bad or harmful (thank god), but if I hadn't have caught my self when I did. I probally would have. Now I can feel my emotions, and it actually helps me connect with people even more. Emotions are your lifeline to everything good. Without emotions you can not live.
Mubashir (285 posts)
 
7 years ago (2012-04-23)
Blocking emotions is not a very good thing to do. You can't do anything better if you stop feeling and understanding something. Its the same as understanding animals. They respond to you when your emotions reach them. Same as controlling elements and magic. You can use the nature much better when your emotions reaches nature. If you keep the flow of your emotions stopped, it will either turn you into a bad person or an empty person. So let your emotions flow free and then you will experience greater power. Hope this help you.
j-torrez (3 stories) (53 posts)
 
7 years ago (2012-04-23)
Well, I must say all are right and all are wrong. Emotions don't have much to do with spells unless if they are very intense emotions. An emotional outburst could as it has been mentioned make ones spell stronger and towards ones objective or a complete disaster. To many variables in play of the outcome. Yet when emotions are gone that room for errors is depleted, yet the spell won't be all it can be. I must say the best way would be for one to have their emotions in balance. I it not an easy thing to do and does take time, yet I think it is worth it. Yet, by what I read you are most likely not to try since that would mean you now would have to face all your emotions and actually get to know who you really are once the mask is off. Something very frightening for one to face! Still, hope that whatever you decide to believe and/or do it is for the best. 😁
Sini42 (15 stories) (17 posts)
 
7 years ago (2012-04-22)
Hi ON1Psychic, I say this with all kindess and looking at this text as a psychic from another country, another culture than yours is, even language here is mutual. I feel in America, the culture emphasises on ego without blame. We are sometimes under the effects of our culture, in a way that might not even be known to our awareness. Sometimes it even takes a trip away to see close. I sense from your text here, that there might be some expectations how these experiences should come about in meaning and aim for you. Please let go of that and any conditions for the situation. Take them in as they arrive. Let go of the self and the emotional need the self has at those exprience moments. This I say to all of us, also myself. We as people are so much smaller than the energies we deal with in these encounters. But we as sensitive antennas-of-some-sort, to lighten things up a bit, are very lucky to get to observe some of that greatness of the spirituality. Trust the might in content the universe offers. Be universal in moments of spiritual encounters. Depression is common with psychics before the path, the clarity is more open. Solitude might even be a necessity on the way. Take care!
Sfairy27 (3 stories) (41 posts)
 
7 years ago (2012-04-22)
It seems that people are much stronger when emotion isn't there to interfere.
ONIpsychic (1 stories) (17 posts)
 
7 years ago (2012-04-21)
Hence why I try so hard to keep my emotions out of my spells, a sudden spike (perhaps from a memory) could be disastrous. However, I of course realize the Power available through utilizing them, so I do experiment with them on occassion. Honestly, I don't see much difference in concious spells. Unintentional Magick, however, seems to be entirely driven by emotions. Another hazard I take pains to avoid.
reef61 (1 posts)
 
7 years ago (2012-04-20)
actual every spell is based on the person emotion for the chances for a spell to go wrong increase with more emotions. Its stronger when a person does not put thous emotions into play alothought it playes a large part making the power stronger/ spell yet its very rare for a magic person too posse the ablaity cuase it ussaly incdencts a very strong magacin where ones bodiy ad arua can deataacht itself from there body leaking it into there power although man magic with this ussaly suffer from teh same problom you have the bouts of deppersion
(forgive me of grammer mistakes)

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