I know I am a medium, I can feel the presence of spirits (light and heavy ones, good ones and not that good ones too), I can sense the energy of the people among me, in that point that I can shut it down sometimes and just stop feeling or sensing.
About ten years ago, my mom and my sister were talking about a dead relative, it was 1 or maybe 2 years after his death, suddenly I started feeling his presence very close to me, at that point that I could even sense his smell, suddenly with no particular reason I started crying and just that presence became heavier and heavier, I could even feel him on my shoulders, I knew he was my relative and I knew he wouldn't hurt me, but it was pretty scary because it was the first time I felt such thing, that situation last for about 20 minutes.
A couple of days ago, I had this very very realistic dream of an unborn member of my family, pretty weird though, it's an unborn child, nobody has seen his face yet, but I could even touch his little head and he was grabbing my thumbs and I could see his big round eyes and his small mouth, etc. That same day in the afternoon, I was watching TV in my bedroom when I started remembering that dream, from one moment to another, I was experiencing the same situation as with my dead relative 10 years ago, I could feel the same energy as in the dream, I started crying with no particular reason, my respiration became faster and faster and I started looking around the room, the ceiling, the walls, the bed, the recliner, etc. As I was convinced that it was the same energy as in the dream I had hours earlier, I just let him control the situation, I knew he wouldn't hurt me and, after 5 or 10 minutes maybe that heavy presence on my head became lighter and lighter until I couldn't feel him at all.
Obviously in these two opportunities the other person was the one who choose to make contact, I'd like to know how can I get that "power" to contact certain spirit and let him breathe through me. Thanks.