To continue from my last story, after realizing that I picked up on the spirit of my daughter's father's deceased cousin, I turned to find out answers of why I was able to "sense" things and why was I the "chosen " one to do so.
My findings came to a website that searched the paranormal and they had a article about sensitives. As I read the description, I realized that the description was describing me! Which lead me to want to find out more. The more I read the more I realized everything I had experienced up to that point made so much sense.
I'm not completely sure if I was born with this ability or if I brought on myself.
When I was 13 I tried to commit suicide by taking 10 aspirin. I never felt like I fit in at school and home life was less than perfect. So instead of dealing I got depressed and decided to end my life. After an hour of realizing the pills had no effect on me, I looked at the bottle and seen that the pills were over three years old. Being so close to death I'm not sure if that opened me up to the spirit world or not. I have read that depression can bring negative spirits your way and that's what I seem to encounter.
Having this gift has made me very spiritual. I am a devoted Christian and attend church regularly, which I notice brings a lot of spirits my way. I have been told by a prophet that I have a "bright light" that attracts spirit my way.
Some experiences I have endured are mischievous spirits who love moving my things around my house, like my keys lol. I have had spirits call my name, spirits come into my dreams especially the "bad" ones. I have never seen them in particular, but I will feel an anxiety attack come on out of no where and I only get those with negative spirits. When I am around good ones I just get goose bumps. I have also have had sleep paralysis which is something I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy.
I know because of my gift, my oldest daughter can SEE spirits. Adriana, whom I mentioned in my last story, was born with a piercing on both of her inner ears. My godmother told me that in the olden days people believed that people who were born with this could see spirits. I laughed at the thought that my daughter would have such a gift. Until she was one and had night terrors. As she got older, she was able to tell me what she would see. She doesn't suffer from night terrors anymore it stopped after we moved from our house.
Adriana is now 11 and still scared of the dark cause of what she sees. I tell her not tl scare her siblings so she keeps them to herself. Nobody knows about our gifts and I like to keep it like that due to non believers and skeptics.
One thing, however, I have noticed is whenever I am depressed or stressed out my ability is heightened. Good example, I am currently in school to be a registered nurse. I had a paper in psychology that I written about sleep paralysis from a medical point of view and a spiritual point of view. While writing the paper I became aware of "something " in my house. I've been in this house for almost a year and haven't came across anything, thought I had lost my gift lol. Anyhow, I wasn't afraid just kept feeling like someone was watching me outside my bedroom door. Every time I tried to go to sleep I would get woken up by a feeling someone came into my room when the door was closed. I couldn't sleep for like 3 days, unless it was during the day.
More to come:-).