I have always known that I am different, but until now, I had no idea why. To begin with, I was born and raised in a devout Christian family, which makes my experiences a little bit trickier. I am more gifted (or at least I think I have gifts) in premonitions than I am in my medium abilities. I think that I may have some precognition also, because I experience and go through things that I have seen before all of the time, but until I experience the situation, I don't remember that I have dreamt of it before.
Anyways, here are some of my true experiences.
October 2011: I was playing a fun game of chutes and ladders on my tablet. All of a sudden, a number popped into my mind, so I focused on that number, and spun the wheel. It landed on the number that I was thinking about. I thought that it was rather odd, so I tried it again to prove to myself that it was just chance. I got it right again. Then, I tried it again. I ended up getting it right seven times in a row before turning off my game in fear.
December 2011: I was playing go fish during my gym class with my best friend. I told her about the written above, and she kept claiming that I was magical, but I know that I am not a witch. Then, she tried testing me. The cards we were playing with had fruit pictures on them, and she shuffled, then held out the stack to me. She told me that she was going to prove me wrong about being a witch, then she asked me which card was on top. Before I could even think, banana slipped out of my mouth. She flipped over the card, and out of fifty what one could it be but the banana card.
February 2012: At my house, there are eighteen solar lights lining our sidewalk. I was in my upstairs room looking out of the window. It was an extremely cloudy day, and the sun hadn't appeared once in the sky. I happen to be a rather random person, so my thoughts drifted off to fire, how it was life and light. As soon as I thought the word light, every single solar light turned on. Even on sunny days, not all of them work, and on a day like that the ones that did work shouldn't have turned on for another hour or two, but everyone was bright and lit up.
March 2012: I did some research online, and stumbled across this site. I decided to try telekinesis. I put my iPad playlist on shuffle, picked a song at random, and turned off the screen. When the song was almost over, I placed my hand on the screen (that was still off) and focused on my favorite song. I waited for a short while, and when the song ended, my favorite song/the song that I was focused on began to play. I was freaked out in a good, scared kind of way, but I thought that it could have been chance, so I tried it again to make sure, and I got it right once more.
April 2012: I was on Netflix, watching a television show. I thought about and episode that I had seen part of on the tv, and instantly wished that I could watch it, but I had no clue which of the 98 episodes it could be. So I scrolled down the list, and my finger stopped on a random one, so I clicked play, and it was the exact episode that I had been thinking of only a half-hour before.
So there are my latest premonition experiences. I have also recently learned that apparently, not everyone can see the flashes, orbs, and moving shadows that I have always been able to see. I thought that that was normal. But now that I have found out that I might have a gift, I have been able to see one spirit full form, but he was only there for the blink of an eye. I told him that I would help him cross over, because he has been at my house since we moved in fourteen years ago, but I never thought that he could be a spirit, I actually until a couple of years ago, didn't think that spirits really existed on earth at all. I also found out that it isn't normal that I could actually see flashes of my "imaginary" friends when I was little. My mom always dismissed it as overactive imagination, but I'm not so sure about that now. Also, lately I have begun to watch the show, Long Island Medium, and her description of children with medium abilities (ex. Fear of being in a room by themselves, feeling an unseen presence in the room, wanting lights on all the time, endless anxiety, and unexplained emotional sensitivity) match my description perfectly. In was always made fun of when I was little because I was always so emotionally sensitive for no reason, and so afraid of everything. I don't know why I acted the way I did, I always dismissed it as a sort of second personality of myself, but wouldn't I have known if I were a medium?
The only person that knows about my experiences is my closest best friend, and of course, God. I don't think I can tell anyone else. My parents wouldn't understand, my teachers would call me satanic, and the kids at school would think I'm a freak and make jokes of me. I know that if I have a gift, it is from God and I am to use it to help others, but nobody else that I know would understand that. My teachers think that reading Harry Potter makes one satanic. What would they say to all of this? Am I even gifted? Or am I just an overanxious freak with a lot of weird chances? Please help.
P.S. Sorry this was so long, but I thought that it was necessary to include everything.