I have had a few instances in my life which I believe are tied together and was hoping to get readers feedback. Please bear with me as it works chronologically.
Instance number 1:
I was probably 13 to 14 years old when I had a dream that I was up against the ceiling and turned over to look down at my body.
Had the feeling that I could've kept going through the ceiling if I chose, but I was worried that I might die if I did. Was not afraid or freaked out. Just felt very calm and relaxed. I can remember vividly being able to lucid dream frequently around this time. I remember there was a period of 1 week where I was able to control my dreams almost before I fell asleep and change it at any time during the dream. This is the only time in my life I consistently went to bed early because of the enjoyment that lucid dreaming can bring.
Instance number 2 When I was approximately 19-20 years old.
Fell asleep next to girlfriend at the time and quickly felt like something was holding me down and I had to fight against it. Tried to wake myself up, and did, but only into another dream state where I was standing beside the bed looking at my girlfriend and I sleeping on my tiny twin bed. Walked over to the bedroom door and down the small hallway to where I was greeted without words by a very spiritual woman (appeared to be) but she had no real distinct features other than giving off a light purple glow and having long shoulder length hair. She was nude, and I remember breasts, but there wasn't a lustful feeling, only a strong sense of calm, love and good. I walked closer and it's as if we melted into each other in what was best described as true lovemaking. It felt different than sex and only felt like an overwhelming feeling of ecstasy and love as if we were tangled together. Afterwards, she held my hand and looked at me and pointed towards where my third eye chakra is. She moved her finger in a circular motion and then pointed to a nearby mirror in the bathroom. When I looked at my reflection, I had a third eye that was like my other eyes but more dominant. When I looked back, she was gone. This is the most peaceful feeling I have yet to feel in my life on this earth or in any other dream. I do not remember getting back to my bed, but woke up feeling as though I had an amazing rest and with a more happy outlook on life. Even though I wasn't open to telling everyone about it.
Instance #3 29-31 years old
In living at a friend's house, had a dream I was above the bed floating and could see myself. Moved towards the door but had an overwhelming feeling that I needed to return to my body or I would give up my physical life and die. Went back quickly.
Within a two week period of the last instance, I had the same "dream" but this time went out into the hallway (through the door without having to open it) and looked down on my roommates sleeping from the area at the top of the doorway. The same feeling of needing to return or I was making a decision to die came over me. Peaceful, not scary at all.
Was under stress at the time in both instances 3 and 4. Have no memory of feeling tingling sensations or other items like others have reported for an out of body experience but that doesn't mean that they weren't present. I just don't recall them.
Current ongoing issue: 32 years old
Most nights I fall asleep right away and end up having a dream within 10-20 minutes which usually ends because I get this overwhelming sense of fear and something negative entering the dream which usually turns to black and is unrelated to the dream. As if you were watching a movie and all of a sudden the screen fades to black. Just a feeling that creeps up and forces me to wake myself usually out of fear. The feeling that also comes with it is a pulling (usually downward like through the floor very quickly) and I usually fight it off and try to wake up and stay awake for 3-5 minutes to change my thoughts. Sometimes I let it happen a little bit and keep falling down but eventually get worried that it might not be good so I decide to wake myself up. I seem to be completely lucid during the times I let it happen and can have rational thoughts. I always have this thought when it begins of "seriously? Again?" Is it something bad? Or is it just a fear from an unknown experience that I am having? I would like to explore this further but am afraid I may be messing with something bad as opposed to good. Happens about 3-4 times per week.
Any thoughts would help. Thanks.