I'm Kelly and I am 25. As I child I never really thought as having any ability other than before my grandmother died, I had a vision she was lying dead in the clouds. Also as a child I would have dreams about simple things that would come true. I just wrote these things off as coincidence.
Now at 25, it seems as though the experiences are a little more intense. What I am mostly concerned about, are these vivid dreams of my grandparents at the house they once lived. I would have wrote these off as not unusual but each time I have this dream, when I wake up, I feel a very strong sense that they were trying to give me a message. Each time it happens, those feelings get more intense. I feel as if they are right there with me trying desperately to communicate.
Very recently, I have also had flash images in my head of families, individuals, and places. Some of these flashes I can know exactly what the family or individual were doing even though the image came and went in less than a second. Other times I'll just get images of a person or place that I've never seen and will know every detail. If I were an artist, I could draw these people and places as if they were right in front of me.
I hope someone can help. The dreams and images wouldn't bother me if I didn't have such strong feelings come over me when it happens. I've been meditating since I was a young girl, but now when I try, it is very confusing and at times scary, because my meditations are being interrupted by these flash images (some of them very cruel and morbid), but instead of being just one image, it is a series of images, one after the other. What is strange is they never have anything to do with each other. I just feel so lost and weary. I've always turned to meditation when feeling troubled, but every corner of my life feels intruded upon. I am to the breaking point. I have no one to really talk to without them thinking I'm crazy. I just want to better understand what is going on so I can have the tools to better control it.
I've always had great intuition. I can figure out what a person is like when I first meet them. My family and friends have learned to listen when I tell them I have a feeling about things that will happen. And I've witnessed a few ghosts in my time, but these dreams and images are really intrusive. If I could just figure out their meaning or message I would feel more at ease. But since all this started, my emotions and anxiety have intensified, and the feelings are worse when in public.