When I was 20, I went to two separate events at my school. Each one featured a tarot card reader. Each told me I would find someone in my 30's.
On one these readings, I asked the reader about a dream I had, where a young man who I believe loved me, was saying "Good-bye" to me.
I asked the tarot reader about the man in this dream. She said, "He shouldn't be popping up in dreams because he is too tied to the earthly plane." What was odd about the dream was I was in a very traditional light blue dress and it felt as though it were a memory of the past instead.
I thought nothing of it.
4 years later I am living in another country and there had been a man who was "in love" with me even though neither of us had spoken to one another except once in the 7 months we worked together. In this culture, the dress I was wearing in the dream is very similar.
I didn't have strong feelings for this man but I am a very strong empathic person. I do believe it's possible I may have had latent romantic feelings for this man or I channeled his feelings and made them my own.
Later after my rejection letter, he refused to see me, stating that he had no feelings for me and that he was getting married. I have no relationship experience at all but he was the first man I had feelings for. But I was due to leave the country and with his cultural background, I would have undergone many social repercussions being with him. I could feel the coldness coming from his text messages.
When he was following me around work, I could NEVER sense it. I knew he was there. I would physically see him and feel as though I was being watched, but I was unable to see it being tied to him.
I can feel so many other people's energies but never his. But I know in spite of the lack of physical evidence and what people later told me, that this man had some exceptionally strong feelings towards me.
I knew this without a doubt. It was just an instinct though.
What's odd now, is that he often appears in my dreams, as a sort of figure that is just there. He says nothings, does nothing, and I never see him clearly.
Whenever I am about to move on in my life, trying to forget him, he reappears in my dreams. He's there and it like memories of the past.
In every dream, I am never comfortable around him. Or rather I can sense his manipulation of events to be near me, but I am never in love with him.
But once I am awake, I feel completely different. I am heart-broken and love-lorn over him.
I had a female boss, who I couldn't sense either, and a psychic told me that, this was the woman she felt, not the man, who was feeding off my energy. So on some level I wonder if I may be secretly channeling her desire for him. She was the one who pushed me to date him, but later told me after I confessed to her that I may have liked him, that he already had a girlfriend.
I asked her why she kept pushing me towards him then. All she did was laugh. I couldn't feel these two people's energies in spite of being able to protect myself against others. If I am channeling either one, I want to stop, but I don't know how.
When I try to explain this to other people, sometimes I just feel paranoid.
I do wonder if he is the man from my dream four years ago and had a deja-vu once about the dream.
I have tried communicating with my spiritual guides to little avail. I want to be able to communicate with them more clearly but seem unable to.
When I was younger I used to dream of a friend the morning before she would either call or visit me. I no longer have them any more.
I had a dream once when I was 14 where I was driven off a cliff. Several years later I had a deja-vu of this dream and I told my friend NOT to get back in the car. I also felt a strong pressure on my heart and I could see a black hand squeezing my heart.
Later on that night or the night after, my friend's father needed emergency heart surgery.
Another time, I was stabbed in a dream by an angry ghost and several days later, my friend and I were in an car accident.
Lately I've been having dreams of murder and being a helper to a medium or stronger psychic.
I strongly believe I was sent these dreams by my guides or perhaps even a negative spirit/entity. I was told that I wasn't spiritually protected and that's why I attract "certain" people.
It's strange how sometimes I feel completely fine, but then out of nowhere, I feel depressed, helpless, and unable to do anything.
I have dreams often of a man, in mental anguish, but I do not know who it is. I would like to know if there's anyway I can figure out who this person is, what I can do help this person or myself.
I started to believe it was just some lingering attachment and there may be symbols but it just doesn't ring true to me.
I can't afford any psychic help and don't have anyone I can ask this about.