There are so many different stages you go through in life when you have been given a special ability. All the questions of who am I, what is wrong with me or have I been cursed with this. All the tragic events that happen, that you are aware of before they happen make you feel like you had part in it or the feeling of guilt because you didn't stop it from happening. Then at times you prevent stupid little occurrences from happening in your own life and then can laugh about it later on. Such a mixed amount of emotion flowing through you as each occurrence happens.
We hear so many mixed messages from other people whom don't understand our lives and what we go through as a child maturing into an adult. Their judging of who we are as people and they say are beliefs are evil. You even see these messages on this web site at times. That is not an easy message for a child to see especially when they are already having a difficult time understanding themselves and what they are going through. I know. I have questioned this myself as a child and even as a young adult. "Am I an evil person? I was born with this. How can I be evil"? All these questions ran through my head growing up, but I didn't put them there, other people did.
Now that I am older I don't let this criticism get to me anymore. My feelings about it are how can you judge if you've never lived it. Also, since these people know God so well than why are they judging us for what we were born with. God does not create evil. God also states that no one should judge anyone and that only God can do that himself. Does their judging us make them evil? I think that is the question they should be asking themselves. I am not judging them, but I feel this is something they should be asking themselves.
Actually, how do they even think the bible was written? It was written by some people who had the same abilities as we do. Our gifts do not make us evil. Our gifts lead us closer to God, and that my friend, is not what evil wants.
God has given us such a special gift. When we ask for help, we are able to find the answers. We are able to have a closer relationship with him because we are so much open. I myself have been given answers and even quickly I might add. I asked for help and guidance and a wonderful lady who has abilities was sent into my life. Plus, I had found this web site and met some very helpful and friendly people. Thank you all.
Since I've had the dream about God sending me the message to meditate, meditation has been arising in my life in many different places. People I don't know have brought up conversations about meditation (meeting God) with me. Even the class I go to, for helping children with disabilities, had a lady for the first time come to our meeting to teach meditation to us. The message is definitely being given.
I was having a real bad day one day and I went into a gas station. The man behind the counter had such angelic eyes and kept staring into my eyes. When I went to give him the money, he kind of grabbed my fingers gently, instead of the money, and continued to look into my eyes and told me with a smile to have a good day. I had such an overwhelming feeling rise in me. It felt like God went through this man to let me know it would be alright. God answers our prayers in so many different ways and we each have our own purpose for being here.