Hello everyone, my name is Pelagie Aggark and I'm new to this site for people who are psychic or empath like me. Ok let me start. When I was little, I was a loner, no one would want to be with me to play with me, so most of the time I would play by myself or with my little brother when he was a baby. I would get these strange feeling when I'm with one person or more so, most of the time, when I'm around people I would be quite like a shy person from these feeling I get from them until I get distracted by something I like (when I'm distracted I become myself instead of having other people's feelings)
As I grew older my connection with my relatives got stronger and from time to time I would have their feelings of sadness, happiness or other feelings, but still I didn't understand why I kept having these feeling from people when I'm around them. When one of them were angry I would sense it right away and get kind of scared of what they might do to me or others, when they're tired I would get bored or tired, when they're sad I would feel sad and show sympathy towards them.
Before my grandmother died (my dad's mom) I sensed that something I loved was not going to be around any longer, I was confused of this unexpected feeling I had until the night I heard about my grandma's passing. So my parents, my brothers and me went to the health center and right away I felt this heavy unbearable feeling of depression in the air, before we went into the room I was already crying because of the pain of sorrow. I was standing beside my parents with my brother who looked like he saw something that no one else can because he's feelings was a mixture of happy and sad one, when he looked at me he told me he can see my deceased grandmother standing beside my grandfather. He didn't tell anyone about this except for me because the both of us are close even now.
A few years ago during the early winter, I had this really bad feeling that someone that I looked up to after the summer games in Rankin Inlet (this is a town I'm living in now) was going to pass on. That night I received a phone call from my mom that her cousin George Innukshuk was no longer alive, no one knew how he died not even the nurses, after I hanged up the phone I ran up to my parents room and cried. My aunt and my brother came to the room I was in and asked me what happened, I told them that my mom's cousin had died and that I knew some bad news was to come to me. My mom came home that same night and I told her what I told my brother and my aunt, I also told her that I was scared of what I sensed before the phone call, she told me that I wasn't the only one with these abilities and I already knew that I wasn't the only one who had them.
When my brothers or sister gets really angry, I would try and not burst with the full amount of anger from them I received, if I did I wouldn't be myself, I would start yelling, screaming and sometime throw stuff at them which I wouldn't mean to do it on purpose. My siblings would get scared of me with my sudden burst of anger and fury that they would stay quiet for a while or leave to cool off, we didn't know I was an empath because we didn't know anything about it.
When I'm around so many people in a small place, I would be somewhat frustrated with these mixed feeling in the air and wouldn't be myself but someone else's, so I just be up in my room or go out for a while and just hang with one to four friends because that way I'll be able to be myself. I sometimes get one of their feelings instead of myself which is kind of confusing who it belongs to, me or one of them? Which ever it was I didn't know.
Just last year I was able to know what my ability was after looking it up in one of my favourite web sites. When I got home from work, I told my mom what my ability was after so many years of confusion and frustration. Before I knew about my ability I would still be confused of these feelings I get from people around me, sometime I would be confused of who I am which was ridiculous. But know that I know about my ability I'm able to control them and sometime it gets out of hand, sometime my friends would freak when I tell them what their feeling. This is all I can tell you on how I learned about my ability, I know most of you won't understand it well because of my english which I'm not really good at. Hope you all have a good day ^-^