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Not Human In A Past Life


My name is Bella and I've never posted anything like this on anything before. This is about what I think my past life is and what I was. It's pretty unexplainable. Perhaps you guys can make sense of it.

Ever since I was very young and able to understand most of the world around me (I'd say about 10 years old or so) I've have this intense feeling that I was a demon in a past life. I've always felt that I was being hindered somehow in my "human form." I can't explain why I feel like I was a demon rather than anything or anybody else but I know in my heart I was. I'm not an evil person and I do not believe my past self was evil and I have a feeling demons in general (such as humans) are not evil or bad. This feeling is so strong that I use images of demons in my artwork, I write about them and research them constantly. I think it's also important to note that I've never had contact with a demon or felt any sort of strange presence in my life and I'm 22 now. Like I said, this is just a very intense innate feeling that I've had for a very, very long time now that is very unexplainable.

If it makes any difference at all I was raised Catholic (I no longer associate with that religion) but my family is very loving, warm, supportive of my life choices and worldly. I don't think my being raised in this religion had anything to do with it. However, I do distinctly remember listening to the priest in church and having a heavy feeling of disagreement when he spoke badly of demons.

So guys, opinions?

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Eagleclaw (386 posts)
10 years ago (2011-08-15)
If you really want to see who and what you looked like in a past life than you can find someone who does past life regression. I did it. It was a gift from my neice. Well, it confirmed my original thoughts about my past lives and is when I was introduced to my spirit guide too. It turns out that I have had about 17 past lives. Mostly shamins, witch doctor and nuns. Always someone with abilities. Sometimes if I meditate on it I can usually get a vision of one of my lives. Your past lives are a part of you. Its part of what makes you who you are. And, yes there are many people walking around that appear human but are really not or are part human. I have seen them myself. And, no I am not a nut. Also, a few psychics in the past have told me that I have a very negative energy that surrounds me. Yet, I would not intentionally hurt a fly. What I'm trying to say is go and meet your true self and hold your head up high. Be happy that you can see your true self. I wish more people would look within more often. Hope this helps.
bbdeathspark (4 stories) (617 posts)
11 years ago (2010-11-26)
"There is no possible way you could have information from a fallen angel or a human in hell if they are already dead, because they would have to die again, or escape hell and give information specifically to you for a reason."

It seems you do not understand the system of life. Based on you saying you don't believe in past lifes, that could be acceptable, but the fact is, Since past lives do exist, this is no longer plausible. If people really did go to hell and heaven there would be no reincarnations.
The only time it's decided we go to heaven and hell is when the reincarnation system is ended.
Dodeca (1 posts)
11 years ago (2010-11-26)
Please read this~
I DO NOT believe in past lives, BUT I do believe that what's dead can give you information from their lives at an early age.

What you were, seems to have been a type of Nephilim. They aren't human, or angel, but a hybrid of both. They are described as "Aliens" or "Extraterrestrials" and have either horns, long heads at the back, Grey skin, large black eyes, or are giant.
There is no possible way you could have information from a fallen angel or a human in hell if they are already dead, because they would have to die again, or escape hell and give information specifically to you for a reason. The Nephilim constantly travel through different star systems and make use of the five and six dimensional areas. (Fifth is explained with gravity but explaining the sixth is too hard right now.)
malconformity (1 stories) (4 posts)
11 years ago (2010-10-09)
Hey, sorry I haven't gotten back in a few days. I sincerely do not believe demons are any more evil than humans can be. However, I do believe stronger "beings" than us might be more apt to manipulate (possess/torture?) humans because they may feel we're inferior or not worth much. In a way you can say it's how some people may few their pets or other animals, if that makes any sense at all. I would really be interested in hearing more about those of you who have had positive experiences with demons or why you feel as if they aren't innately evil.

If you guys want I can describe what I believe "they" look like.

And Matrix Wolf Spirit, I probably will be emailing you. What you said to me seems to make the most sense.
Matrix_Wolf_Spirit (2 stories) (60 posts)
11 years ago (2010-10-09)
Hey there.
I think some of us were once catholic at one point cause I was one of them too. But if you feel that way than yes you were probably a demon. Plus some demons are not so evil. My past life for instance I was a demon too. I saw visions of me and my army. Everyone liked me cause I put the people before me. I feel his strength he had so long ago. Now to help you, its kind of simple. Things will come back to you, like flashbacks, seeing of random scenes and stuff like that. Just believe that you will find it cause than you will find out your name and maybe someone has heard of you. You never know who you knew back than. E-mail me if you need help for things.
Tiran (2 stories) (13 posts)
11 years ago (2010-10-08)
I know you said you were raised Catholic, and don't follow it anymore... And this kind of pushes some religious boundries but try to keep an open mind, if you will.:)

So there were a lot of books that were cut out of the Bible. One of which was the Book of Enoch. It talks about how a group of angels called the Grigori fell in love with humans and interbred with humans and had hybred children... And were thus kicked out of heaven for it (ie. They were the fallen angels). A lot of the stuff taught in churches about "fallen angels" is a little out of wack and misinterpreted and taken from scriptures that have absolutely nothing to do with angels falling. In my opinion, and I have gotten this kind of opinion from reading lots and lots of books, religious texts, etc. Demons and fallen angels are NOT the same thing. However, we are taught that they are.

My personal experiences with demons is that they are downright evil. I've personally seen demon posessions/exorsisms and even had demons come after me and my family. However, I sympathize with the Grigori (fallen angels) and often feel like they get a bad rap by the misinformed. Do you think it might be possible that you are more of a fallen angel than a demon?
malconformity (1 stories) (4 posts)
11 years ago (2010-10-08)
Anne I'm not sure if this is what you meant but I don't feel as if I had horns or wings or any grotesque features. Actually I feel as if I could have been very uniquely beautiful.
Paws (3 stories) (16 posts)
11 years ago (2010-10-08)
AnneV, thank you for sharing more. I did read your other articles on aliens and was left wanting more. That subject has fascinated me since childhood. I understand that you may not wish to publicly post too much, but I will email you my address so that if you feel the desire to share, I would be an open to reading anything you might like to relay. Excited, in fact. It is different as a member here, to take in what you have to say, because I feel very comfortable with you. Where as finding random websites with information and stories, I would only take with a grain of salt.
AnneV (4 stories) (1063 posts) mod
11 years ago (2010-10-07)
Hi Paws (and others),
If you scroll down on the articles link ( you'll see an "Alien" section. I started posting some of my information there.

I would love to write more about them but sometimes I wonder if anyone will believe what I say (not that this matters too much but I also don't want to waste my time). What the general public "sees" in this world is but the smallest fraction of what is out there. There are numerous dimensions and inhabitants. We are teeny tiny in numbers compared to the universal inhabitants as a whole. This narrow description of "demons" is just a label for one being that they perceive as negative. And most times, people aren't even seeing demons, but labeling an experience they perceive is from a negative being (so it must be a demon!) Humans can be demons sometimes, you know?

We are telepathic so we are able to communicate with other beings, even demons and aliens. When you leave your body, you leave your voice box behind. When you start traversing dimensions you come into contact with other inhabitants. I am not a fearful person in general so my vibe doesn't invite that in return. I've seen entities, with wings, that If you saw them, your first response would be "devil". They were pure black, leather skin (no hair), beautiful black eyes that were so deeply penetrating, and very much aware. They had sharp angular faces (just like how the devil is projected). There is of course no human words that can be exchanged but there is intent and feelings. I wanted to observe it for awhile and it let me but then it eventually went away as there was nothing to exchange outside of observance on both parts. I have perfect recollection of staring into its eyes. I think these things find it an oddity to encounter a conscious human being. Most people don't consciously astral travel, especially to other realms or worlds. I know from my own perspective, it's very isolating out there as very few humans are developed enough and most spend their sleep time dreaming.

I have also invited a grey to introduce itself, which it did in the etheric. I was totally marveled by it. No fear! It was the quintessential "grey" alien. Short, thin, wide slanted eyes and so on. Without words, it acknowledged my request. I tried to wake my husband but it forced me to visually black out and then it was gone. I've heard that if a human isn't ready, they won't allow them to be seen and apparently it didn't want him to see him.

Two nights ago, I was asked if I was "ready", by what may have been a guide, to meet another alien group and I said yes. I was taken by the arm and introduced to a group of aliens I've never seen before. They were small, blackish and had very rough skin. Kind of scary looking if you ask me but that's our programming. I sent them unconditional love and greetings. They reciprocated. I've harped on this webpage repeatedly that what you put out is often what you get in return and not only that, even if you encounter negativity, even so called evilness, you can totally change that with true unconditional love. I've tested this over and over and it has been true 100% of the time. Evil simply cannot stand up to divine feelings. If you fail it's only showing you that you have more pure love to learn.

Anyway, now the really odd thing and this relates to Bella here, is that I've travelled to other planets/dimensions and felt myself morphing into something with wings. For the life of me I didn't know what was happening but I was taking on a different shape and even mentality. There were other times I would encounter people and they ran off frightened (and if you saw me, you'd agree I am nothing frightening). I think there are some souls here on earth that have had a life somewhere else and have reincarnated here to serve a purpose. Where we go when we die is anyone's guess but I've also travelled to a planet and knew it was my true home. This is just a stopping ground for me to help people as best as I can. This may be Bella's path too. If it is, this will show up in her dreams, which are often just disguised astral experiences.

If that's not enough oddity for you, please feel free to write me at eclecticraven [at] I find this subject hugely fascinating.

ZiShu (129 posts)
11 years ago (2010-10-07)
My experiences with demons has mostly been bad. I see them as evil not just because they oppose God, but because they have tried to kill me, my dog, my friends. It doesn't get any eviler than that. If you don't count a demon chocking you until you lose all your breathe not evil, then I think you may need to do some reconfiguration.
Also I've seen demons try to twist and trick people into hurting each other or commiting suicide. I've seen demons mess with people mentally to where they are sent to the mental hospital.
There are some demons... That are good, but it is a rare case. These good demons are trying to repent from their ways.
Paws (3 stories) (16 posts)
11 years ago (2010-10-07)
AnneV, would you be willing to write an article or even just a thread on your travels and the beings you saw? Preferably with visual details? I am sure I am not the only one fascinated by this or would appreciate learning about what you have seen:)
malconformity (1 stories) (4 posts)
11 years ago (2010-10-06)
Hey Bella here. Thanks so much for all of your opinions so far I'm suprised you guys got back so quick:) Anyway everything you guys said makes a lot of sense but the comment about the aliens stuck out to me. I agree with what you said but I'm very connected with the word demon (although I don't think that's what "they" call themselves in their own language) and a concept of a struggke between two relems (heaven and hell if you will) if you guys care to hear more I can go on haha
Shaolin (1 stories) (212 posts)
11 years ago (2010-10-06)
Demons are perceived as "evil" because they are "perceived" to be beings who do nothing but defy "god." To be honest demons are emotional beings who are stubborn and strong willed and minded, demon is an archtype, not something that "makes" anyone evil. I've known demons who are very goodwilled and hearted, just in the manners I've mentioned. Christianity has skewed demons and angels into good and evil instead of inherently being of a certain general personality, and personality does notmake you make certain choices, but it can and sometimes does influence them
lindajean (5 stories) (109 posts)
11 years ago (2010-10-06)
We are here to learn what our soul wants us to learn. Also, there might be a karmic connection with a past life that you need to work out in this life.
If you were what you call a "demon" you could try meditating and ask for some answers as to why you feel so connected with demons.
Hope you find your answers ❤
AnneV (4 stories) (1063 posts) mod
11 years ago (2010-10-06)
One thing you may be confusing for demon, is "alien". All alien is, is a being that is not from earth (just like we are aliens to other planets). In my astral travels, and I've had a lot of them, I ran across what looked exactly like the stereo-type "demon" but what exactly is that? We use that word because that is what has been taught for a very long time for a being/entity of a different dimension. I think what some demons are, are just beings from another time and space. So it makes perfect sense your incarnations may not have started here on earth. I know mine have not. And if a being is not originally from earth they aren't necessarily going to look human. The fact is, there are countless beings in countless dimensions and planets. The myriad of looks would boggle the mind. So you may have looked like a stereo-typical "demon" but not be demonic in personality.

Of course you're good and from good family. Who says all aliens who look a certain way are bad? This would be "alien racism". Why can't their personalities be as diverse as our or why can't their spiritual path be as diverse as ours?

I was raised Catholic as well so I know all about the typical "demon" that was presented to me. But the beings that I've seen not from earth, were not demonic in nature. Just odd looking in comparison to us.

Thanks for sharing such an interesting post. You're also free to write me if you want more details of my own travels and these beings that I saw. Eclecticraven - at - yahoo (dot) com.


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