That is the title because I haven't been able to tune into any feeling or emotion whatsoever. Just about 4 - 5 years ago, I started to dream about seeing myself sleeping then just walking in a place that looks so familiar but everything there seemed out of place. This "realm" so to say is different from what is real - that much I had deduced. Weird enough, in this realm, I see no one talking - or living for that matter. It's just a place, quite dark (even if it broad daylight when I sleep) that looms and feels hopeless. I actually don't know how to explain it.
So far, with research, I've been able to find out that what I have been doing in my sleep is something like an out of body experience. But recently, even when I close my eyes, I feel as though I'm moving between two separate realms - this one and the other. That's when I begin to see all these other existing but non-living beings walking among us.
I'm 21 and at this age, I don't think imaginary friends are applicable. Honestly, this out of body experience thing is very draining. Sometimes at night, I don't want to sleep or even close my eyes for an hour because I know I'm going to see that other realm again. And I don't like what I see there. Even with my mentor, I find it hard to keep myself grounded because of how 'nice' the realm looks and feels.
I had an experience about 2 months ago where I wanted to see if I could do it consciously; and I succeeded. For some reason, a wind elemental took me from my body and brought me around saying "IT" was the spirit of the wind and that I was in tuned with "IT". I didn't believe it at first because I said, it could have been just my imagination and I was actually sleeping with my eyes open. But then, when I "got back" I felt quite drained but light. Weird.
Now for a few questions:
Is it possible to talk to the spirit of the elements?
Why would it say that I am in tune with that specific spirit? Why not the others?
How can I prevent the out of body experience when I sleep?
Is the spirit trying to get me?