I'm An Empath, What's Wrong With Me?

My name is Kelsey, and I'm a 19 year old empath. Some of my experiences are my hands getting painfully hot out of nowhere. Usually when someone is sad or upset, and when I touch them they feel better and my hands won't hurt anymore. When I'm out of energy and exhausted, they get ice cold and won't warm back up. It's usually a really tingly kind of feeling when they're warm, almost like they're asleep. I could out them in ice water and they're still burning. I know when something is bothering someone, and instantly I feel like 10x older and wiser, and I'll comfort them and listen and talk and do whatever they need, and I just know. I dunno. What to say I suppose. I thought I was just a good people person, but what I can sense before they even tell me is spot on with what they tell me they're feeling later on. Sometimes I feel everyone else's pain or unhappiness it makes my chest hurt with sharp stabbing pains. I went to the doctor and they did a number of tests, and couldn't find any reason or evidence for the chest pains. Other times I'll see someone and just want to break down and cry, some I'm overly excited and happy, some people I get extremely angry and bitter, it's all so conflicting, especially in places like malls or hospitals. I also see like. Distortions above people's heads. Like above them is darker, and messing up the atmosphere around them, almost like when you run your hand through water and it cleaves out. That's what it looks like. Other times I see little floating balls. They kind of look like molecules or atoms or maybe even dust. I ask my friends if they can see it too and they say no. Is this just some sort of ocular hallucination? Normal? I had gone to a psychic in early January and she had gone on and on about how I'm and empath and a wounded healer and yadda yadda, and then told me I was an Earth Angel. But I don't believe in God at all. And I feel like if I was an Earth Angel, I wouldn't be so lost. I just feel like a giant sponge for everyone's thoughts and feelings, and I don't know how to protect myself. It's so hard being in public, everyone just takes my energy and I'm exhausted in a matter of minutes. I really need a lot of help. I've been so lost lately. Lately though, I've felt stuck. My Dad just passed away on his birthday from cancer, and it was truly the worst experience of my life, and I've been dealt the worst kind of hand. Since then I feel, I don't know how to describe it, but broken? Like. I can't sense things as good as I used to. A month ago my step mom kicked me out after I came home to find my bed gone, as a "practical joke" on me. I don't live there anymore, but I feel guilty. That somehow I caused everything to go wrong in my life. And I'm afraid he's disappointed in me. There's been so much that's happened that I know isn't my fault, but I feel so much guilt mingled with my own depression and anxiety. On top of what everyone around me is feeling. I don't know what to do! How do I fix me? Is there any way for me to talk to my Dad? I really really need him. I'm not going to post my life story on here, it's much too long and I only tell it to people I feel comfortable with. But why is it that I can help others, but not myself? I try to meditate and work on me, but I just can't. Maybe I don't know how, or maybe I just don't care anymore. I guess I just feel really alone. Like no one else knows what it's like. What can I do to help myself? How can I know if my Dad is safe on the other side and able to talk to me? Can anyone contact the spirit of a deceased person at will for me on here? Can I strengthen my abilities once I get them under control? Thank you so much for taking the time to read!