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Empathic-angelic Awakening? Guidance Requested


Not sure where to start, it seems that I'll always try to do my best to find answers to the many questions I possess.

I am in my mid 20's and This is all I know about myself, I am an empath and I have a very strong sense of Clairsentience. I can feel emotions, I can feel how others feel, and so forth.

Also I am very good at giving energy but not taking it, at least not that I know of. I want to consider myself a healer of some sort and I have a strong sense of compassion and hope. I deeply care about others and I don't mean to sound egotistical or a show off but I do consider myself as someone who cares more about others than myself. I just want the people around me to be happy and if I know someone is suffering I feel it is my duty to help them.

So recently I've had a huge fascination with Angels. I honestly don't know why I just feel drawn to them and I've done a lot of research. From regular angels, to archangels, to fallen angels and everything in between. My empath abilities come and go I can't really control them the way I want to. I feel like my clairsentience recently has taken a new form because now I feel what the fallen angels or maybe even most angels have felt about humans. How they see them beneath them HOWEVER I just see that point of view. It doesn't mean I agree, while I will say there are people out there who are the scum of the earth there are others who are just so wonderful.

I've been feeling a very strong sense of purpose and I don't know who to really talk to without sounding crazy. I pick and choose certain words with people but I don't know. I feel like i'm needed by people, and when I know I am I do my best to help them. I recently I've been feeling like I have to fight. Actual physical fighting which worries me because I am definitely not in any physical shape to be in one but on the inside I want to. It's like so much rage inside where I just want to fight but I don't know who or what.

I always enter people's lives and every time I have helped them or done my best to help as much as I can we always tend to grow apart. Like my role in their live is over. Which I'm okay with. Recently, I've wondered if I always enter to help in someone's life because someone prayed for me or just really needs someone.

I know a lot of people with abilities that have some type of supernatural attributes to them have sicknesses that are taking a toll on their physical body. I am not like that but I do have a bad case of ADD.

I said this before but I just want to know what's going on with me. I don't know if I may be an Angel or something else. I can't explain why I feel I may be angel but I have no evidence. I know i'm something else I just can't explain it. I know I've been here before, and I've had many people tell me i'm an old soul.

I need a teacher, a guide, a mentor, someone that I can talk to and help me move forward in my awakening. I can't do this alone. I can't meditate it's difficult for me because my mind is too loud and chatty, because of my ADD. I just want to develop my abilities, see if I have more and more importantly figure out if I am who I think I am or if I am something else. It's very frustrating and to be honest even though I have a lot of great people in my life I feel very alone and sometimes even crazy to have certain thoughts like this.

Thank you for your time.

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cayce17 (8 stories) (192 posts)
7 years ago (2015-11-06)
Riv-El, you mentioned that you wanted a helper and that you need guidance and I know of people that can help you if you still are looking for a mentor. Here's my e-mail: rainashea16 [at]
BrightEyes (4 stories) (14 posts)
10 years ago (2013-09-05)
Reading your story Riv El was like reading out of my very own journal! I can't tell you how closely your words mirror my own life. I am in my 40's and have suppressed much of the anger and feeling alone for so long it hurts inside. Only recently have I began to re-awaken what's inside of me so I can begin to understand why I feel the way I do. I hope that since you initially posted your story that you have found some answers or at least made progress on your journey. Best wishes.
xXAloysiusXx (10 posts)
10 years ago (2013-07-14)
Aah, I forgot how much I relate to you in this post. Again, so sorry for taking that long, long, leave of absence. I can be so inconsiderate, I apologize.

I'd greatly prefer contacting you through e-mail; the site is completely public and some particularly bad people come onto this site to manipulate others. (Specifically, demons can access anything that's electronic, but let's save that for another time.)

Emotions are something everyone experiences--when one begins to really pay attention to them, analyze them, and try to utilize them, it boosts their sensitivity. Psychic abilities (I don't really like using the term 'psychic,' I'll eventually explain that sometime as well) can be learned, did you know that? But the ones chosen by our Father tend to have active abilities already (remember there are always exceptions).

I feel the exact same way, the urge to fight, all the time. I'm currently trying to get into some martial arts classes and I exercise at home often, feeling like... If I'm not fit, if I'm not ready for the future, I won't survive, and more importantly, I won't be able to help the ones I love to survive. (In the future, fighting will be necessary. But we have to advance in different ways now. Advance as human beings.)

As for your feelings about angels, it's possible you could have been an angel in your past life. Or, your guardian angel could be trying to contact you. It's very likely that it could be both. We could start with contacting your guardian first to see what he/she says about that. Your guardian has been with you since the creation of your soul, throughout all of your lives; they love you very, very much and just hope... So much, to be acknowledged by their human. I don't think guardian angels look down upon humans as you've been saying, because guardians become extremely attached with their charges. Higher ranked angels that do not have charges to take care of could feel that way, though. I try not to think of them like that.

As I was saying, please acknowledge your guardian! When you get some alone time, just talk out loud to them. They're listening. You can tell them anything and everything. This will begin to establish a close bond with your guardian which is necessary to move forward. Talk to them everyday, or even throughout each day. You're never alone. Your guardian is always with you (which helped me with fears that I had).

But before we really get into progressing, I'd like for us to get to know each other more. I will be happy to be your teacher, mentor, guide, whatever. I don't know why, but I'm getting excited at reading your story over again and reading your e-mails. I'm feeling something through your words, if that makes any sense? I apologize if I rub off as strange, lol. Don't be afraid to ask me questions about anything and I'll eventually explain to you how I know this subject matter.

Answer one thing for me: what is your view on God?

But have a great night or day whenever you read this.
Shanna (16 posts)
10 years ago (2013-03-08)
[at] missaimee123

I'm sorry but you're posting your story in another one's topic, so I'm going to keep my post short and won't answer to you now. I DO know exactly what you feel and what's going on with you, and I can explain it.
Please message/ email me, you can find my address in my profile.
I can give you the explanations and advise you need so hard, because I know what you're going through.

Shanna ❤
missaimee123 (1 posts)
10 years ago (2013-03-03)

I was wondering if someone out there could help me out. I am new to learning about psychic abilities which is why I joined this form. I can relate to a lot on this topic as I had anger issues for about 27 years I just couldn't control until recently. I also am very senitive to others and always feel obligated to help others before myself. Since I was little i've always had the ability to envision the future before it happens in my dreams. Sometimes I will get whole sequences of events acted out or sometimes just dates. For instance I had a dream of me being at two funerals a few weeks ago and last week my aunts husband passed away. I had a date enter my mind and it turned out to be a day I had a big blow-out with my boyfriend of a year My most deepest spirtual journey was when my father died. He had cancer and the night he died I had a dream so vivid and clear as day of him. He was young again and looked exactly like he did on the day of his wedding to my mother. Tux and all he was smiling. I saw the word " redemption" which holds significance as my father spent his whole life in jail and felt badly he couldn't be there for me growing up. It was as if he was asking for my forgiviness. I believe it was also a message to me as he was telling me to forgive some important people in my life. In the dream, I was laying on the beach and a tidal wave was about to take me out to sea. I was frienghtened at first, but it just ended up washing over me as to cleanse me. Like being reborn again. Following, I turned over on my side and there was my father holding me in my arms as the sun shined down on us and seagulls flew overhead. I truly believe my father was reincarnated as a seagull to perhaps watch over me, but I haven't completely felt his presence lately. I had the dream of him that nite, woke up at 3am, went back to sleep and in the morning my phone rang. My brother called to tell me my dad passed away that night. I had the dream before I even knew he had left us. This event was over a year ago. Since then I have become a firm believer in my abilites, but I just want to learn how to use them and how I could help people. I really want to channel into them more and understand them. Perhaps learn how to connect with my dad more or understand his messages to me as they come. I have been given this gift and want to use it to its full potential. However, right now I am in a tough spot with the same boyfriend of a year. He gives out lots of negative energy and is verbally abusive at times. I love him though and my empathy allows me to understand he is just sad within himself, insecure and hurt. I have the opportunity to go travel to see my friend/sister, but he says if I go he won't be waiting when I get back and it will be over. He tends to be very controlling. This controlling behavior is what I have dealt with for the past year and apart of me just wants to be free from it. However, I love him so I find it hard to leave. Two months ago, I had a dream of a sequence of events that involved him and I parting ways and I saw the words "this will be the last time" come to me. As we have broken up so many times this made sense to me. The trip is apart of what I dreamed. The sequence of events are already coming true and the events are slowly all coming together. However, if I don't go on this trip will I have prevented the future from happening? Or is it destined to already happen anyways and the dream was just preparing me? Or am I suppose to take this dream as a warning if I go it truly will be over between us? This is where understanding my dreams and abilities more would help... Unsure what to do?
destinyhope (4 posts)
10 years ago (2013-02-27)
And in regards to that article! I didn't want to go on a whole sphel but we are indeed in the new golden age and that pretty much means all our spirits are becoming more active and start to yearn for their higher calling. And pretty much we are becoming mentally, and spiritually what our SOULS and SPIRITS are meant to. Living out karma from past lives, experiencing empathy and psychic phases. Being sensitive to planetary alignments and moon phases. Our souls very greatly want to return to where they came from -ascension- and now, the energies are in full swing! And something beautiful inside all of us is happening. It's the mystics of being:3 well, that's my inturpitation of it all anyhow
destinyhope (4 posts)
10 years ago (2013-02-27)
You're a light worker, and a possible star being:') on the same hand have you met anyone new lately? It sounds to me like you are currently reaching your awakening. I would be delighted to be the one to help you on your journey. If you wish, you can look on my page for my facebook and msg me OR you can e-mail me.
iris3108 (1 posts)
10 years ago (2013-02-27)
I just wanted to send you this link that I recently came across:

It talks about what happened in December 2012...

Shanna (16 posts)
10 years ago (2013-02-26)
I've had that rage myself, and I still have it. I just keep it locked up nice and tight and don't let it out. It was hard to learn because humans aren't creatures of selfcontrol, but I've learned to control myself and not let that rage out.
Don't get me wrong, I'm a very peaceful and compassionate person and a pretty very powerful empath besides.

But I'm not perfect, and neither are you.

I don't know for sure what's causing all that rage, but I have a couple of theories. Can be from a past life; can be bad memories form a previous life, or from this life, it can be that you feel all the bad stuff going on in the world, it can be that you have conflicting sides in yourself, that it's a primal side of yourself that's locked up and doesn't like it/ is frustrated. Or that it's all those things combined.
That's all I can think of so quickly. It can of course be a little or a lot of that all.

As for your ADD, I would say that it's a very mis-diagnosis. It's completely natural and normal that you can't concentrate with all the things going on in and about you. With that I mean all the things you can feel, see, etc. Etc. That "normal" people can't or don't want to see. You don't have ADD because something is wrong with you, but because you are -for us kind of people- normal!
If you feel stuff, feel other peoples emotions, feel energy, feel auras, are concerned about peoples wellbeing because you can feel all that, have questions about all that you feel, think about if it's even real what you feel, try to find out why you feel what you feel, try to rationalize it, try to find a reason, try to cope and stay sane with all you're feeling, look for a reason... Do I need to continue? With all that stuff on your mind, OF COURSE YOU ARE DISTRACTED all the time!

Besides that I can clearly tell that you're very smart and think a lot and deeply about things, so your mind is just on different things than what's normal for normal people.

What you need is being able to do is properly shield yourself. You can't meditate because you can't shut out all the "signals" that you're picking up. You just have a bigass antenna you can't shut off.

Let me tell you, you're not crazy:). You're going through a turbulent period similar to puberty, and we all remember how that was! I'm just done with it, now I'm 21 and I'm so happy with being -kind of- stable again. Nothing to do about this besides thinking and sitting it out. Thinking and talking about it helps speeding the process up. Though your brains and you need time to let it all settle, so DO take that time.

As to the link you feel to angels, you can try to find your answers in the otherkin community, I've got this link for you to get started

Concentrate more on YOU. The easiest is to start with your body, listen to what it tries to tells you, give more attention to it. Get to know it and learn to love it, with all the freckles, scars, bumps hairs and stuff. It's easy to concentrate and get to know your skin, so start with that. If get distracted by something you feel, be harsh and tell it to shut up.

I'm going to post this now, because it's already pretty long and I can keep going and going. And I need to do some other stuff...
sigmadeadbolt (5 stories) (42 posts)
10 years ago (2013-02-22)
[at] Riv-El ADD is sometimes a misdiagnosis for Celiac disease.
Cailean (1 posts)
10 years ago (2013-02-22)
I am in my early 20's and I know exactly how you feel. Have you heard of psychic vampirism? I would recommend taking a look at some of the relationships in your life after reading about it. People of our nature actually draw in these types of people because of our all giving souls. You have to recognize it in every interaction you have and protect yourself. It will cause them to create a cord so to speak that gives you their negative thoughts and emotions. Learning to block those or break them if you get caught in a cycle of negative/positive relations will save you from the rage. Emotions are energy which is why we can send and give them to others. Learn to not let people send you theirs.

Once that is mastered you can feel what bliss the state of no thought is. Happiness always because we are creatures of light.

Namaste ❤
Newbiepsychic (109 posts)
10 years ago (2013-02-22)
I can recommend a few things for you...
Re the ADD and not being able to concentrate on meditating. It sounds like you need to try and focus on "you" and all the chattiness in your mind is not allowing this, which is normal:) You might want to read a good book called "A New Earth" by Eckhart Tolle. It explains in great depth the ego and how that mind chatter is your ego and how to calm it down and get to who "you" really are. I found it helpful but it is "deep" so don't be upset if it isn't for you.

As for that need to "fight", I went through a time of a lot of rage as well and I do believe it is part of awakening and so you just have to go with it, work out the issues, find a way to resolve it in yourself so you don't feel that anymore. Excercise helps, workouts or just insanely long walks until you tire yourself out, which also gives you time to think about all of this. Give that a try but also identify what it is that is making you so angry. It's important to identify this so you can resolve it.

As for angels... My understanding is is that we all have guardian angels and spirit guides around us all the time, so I don't think you are wrong to be interested in them or wanting to understand it, it sounds like it's just your "opening" to knowing that there is more to reality than just what our 5 limited senses allow us to know.

Keep working with all of this. I didn't notice your age but sometimes it takes years to go through the whole process and some people never even acknowledge any of this. So good for you for being interested, but be patient with yourself, it takes time to work through it all.

Also I would recommend focussing on your health, the foods you eat, your sleep, your overall well being... Do you feel healthy? Make small changes, do research, get enough sleep every night, find a way to bring that part of yourself into alignment so you can say "yes, I feel healthy".
Just my 2 cents. I hope that helped a bit.
Good luck:) ❤
lightworkerhealer (1 stories) (56 posts)
10 years ago (2013-02-22)
Riv-El the same happens with me. I would like to suggest a book which may have all the answers that you are looking for. The book is "The Angel Therapy Handbook" by Doreen Virtue. Hope this helps.
xXAloysiusXx (10 posts)
10 years ago (2013-02-21)
Oh I'm sorry I didn't mean to do that, my real e-mail is venusaloysius13 [at]
Riv-El (4 stories) (5 posts)
10 years ago (2013-02-21)
I tried emailing you but it's not a working email.

Angeline? I tried googling it and it comes off as a name and no information on it. Any help is better than none
xXAloysiusXx (10 posts)
10 years ago (2013-02-21)
It's possible you may be Angeline, or an Angel in some past life.

Have you discussed this with your guardian angel? Do you know who your guardian is, or are you aware of the fact that everyone has a guardian angel?

The rage sounds like your dark side.

If you're curious about this, e-mail me at venusaloysius [at]
vergil117 (guest)
10 years ago (2013-02-21)
i do some of the same things, with my empathy I care about others before myself. I come on this site to help as many people as I can... And its hard because I don't ever help myself. Because I feel that others should be happy first. Empathy is hard, and I know the feeling you have.

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