Not sure where to start, it seems that I'll always try to do my best to find answers to the many questions I possess.
I am in my mid 20's and This is all I know about myself, I am an empath and I have a very strong sense of Clairsentience. I can feel emotions, I can feel how others feel, and so forth.
Also I am very good at giving energy but not taking it, at least not that I know of. I want to consider myself a healer of some sort and I have a strong sense of compassion and hope. I deeply care about others and I don't mean to sound egotistical or a show off but I do consider myself as someone who cares more about others than myself. I just want the people around me to be happy and if I know someone is suffering I feel it is my duty to help them.
So recently I've had a huge fascination with Angels. I honestly don't know why I just feel drawn to them and I've done a lot of research. From regular angels, to archangels, to fallen angels and everything in between. My empath abilities come and go I can't really control them the way I want to. I feel like my clairsentience recently has taken a new form because now I feel what the fallen angels or maybe even most angels have felt about humans. How they see them beneath them HOWEVER I just see that point of view. It doesn't mean I agree, while I will say there are people out there who are the scum of the earth there are others who are just so wonderful.
I've been feeling a very strong sense of purpose and I don't know who to really talk to without sounding crazy. I pick and choose certain words with people but I don't know. I feel like i'm needed by people, and when I know I am I do my best to help them. I recently I've been feeling like I have to fight. Actual physical fighting which worries me because I am definitely not in any physical shape to be in one but on the inside I want to. It's like so much rage inside where I just want to fight but I don't know who or what.
I always enter people's lives and every time I have helped them or done my best to help as much as I can we always tend to grow apart. Like my role in their live is over. Which I'm okay with. Recently, I've wondered if I always enter to help in someone's life because someone prayed for me or just really needs someone.
I know a lot of people with abilities that have some type of supernatural attributes to them have sicknesses that are taking a toll on their physical body. I am not like that but I do have a bad case of ADD.
I said this before but I just want to know what's going on with me. I don't know if I may be an Angel or something else. I can't explain why I feel I may be angel but I have no evidence. I know i'm something else I just can't explain it. I know I've been here before, and I've had many people tell me i'm an old soul.
I need a teacher, a guide, a mentor, someone that I can talk to and help me move forward in my awakening. I can't do this alone. I can't meditate it's difficult for me because my mind is too loud and chatty, because of my ADD. I just want to develop my abilities, see if I have more and more importantly figure out if I am who I think I am or if I am something else. It's very frustrating and to be honest even though I have a lot of great people in my life I feel very alone and sometimes even crazy to have certain thoughts like this.
Thank you for your time.