This is all crazy to me but here it goes. The first time I saw this person I felt a connection. Like magnetic. I just knew he was my soul mate and I needed to wait for him. We didn't meet personally. I would just see him around. I don't know why but I just knew that I was going to end up with him. I am involved with someone and so was he. I just knew that life would bring us together when the time was right. Again, we never met personally. There were times that I thought it was nuts for even feeling that way. Some time went by and I started to feel some what detached dismissing that what I had felt was insane. I was at the store looking for cups and 2 caught my attention. One was a monkey and the other an ox from the Chinese zodiac. I'm a monkey and I immediately without thought picked up the ox and just knew it was this persons Chinese sign and sure enough his birth year was on there. I had not thought about him for a while since I just knew that in the end he was for me. An hour later that same day I was told that he had died in an accident. I was heart broken and angry at myself for not doing anything. I visited the scene of the accident and I felt an over whelming energy. I was only able to be there for about 10 minutes and I had to leave.
I feel like I lost something in me. I wasn't able to close my eyes without seeing him. Was I just a bit delisonal or can destiny bend at times? I am still aching and I am very sad. Just don't know what to make of all of this. Can someone please give me some feedback