My name is Rebecca and I have been on this site for about 3 months now. I've noticed my 'abilities' have increased because of this website and the people on it who have helped me with the problems that I have faced and I have gotten help from them. My abilities were starting to drive me crazy because I didn't know what was going on. For the past three years my abilities had flared to the point to where at least once a week or sometimes more something started to happen mainly predictions and seeing things.
I had problems understanding what was going on and I think I still need help from a wider range of help that might be provided by the people who read this.
I experienced things from predictions of deaths to seeing spirit guides of other people (one of my friends has a guide that likes to fly at me and scare me whenever I am with her). I would go on paranormal ghost hunts and before I knew that I had abilities, some bad stuff happened to me for a while and affected me and my friends physically (literally possessions and getting choked and bitten physically by nothing that was there) it stopped after a while though because of me starting to fight it back. We went into something we couldn't explain and the thing followed us all home but attacked everyone who was there in different ways. I don't know how to explain all of it so I might put that into a later writing. It is too large to put in this one when I am going to be talking and asking general questions about my experiences.
The thing is though, is that one of my trusted friends who has some of the same abilities as I have had some problems whenever she delved too much into the paranormal and her abilities. She was into her abilities daily and used it to help people daily but she got so wound up in her own 'predictions and readings' that she couldn't function on a regular basis and almost died because she couldn't stop thinking about a prediction she made.
She told me I was becoming too involved in it and that I might do something dangerous to myself. She said because I was reading people how she used to that I might come across something that might hurt me because I'm still a novice at this type of thing and that I should see what happens and what I predict after a while of writing in a journal. The thing is though, that I only really 'feel' anything is if I think about it, only sometimes though will something come into my mind and I will get something that will come true (not sure if it's my voice or my guides they sound a lot a like. I don't know the difference between them)
Some of the general experiences I have had since I started this site (3 months ago):
I have heard my guides voices (maybe not exactly sure because it sounds like my own).
Question 1: Do guides voices normally sound like yours?
I have read people and if they aren't lying about what I say to them is correct then I can read their energies. I have been able to experience their pain, guides, spirits that are with them, problems they face, physical attributes etc. I get a buzzing sensation whenever I read them and normally whenever I talk about feeling the buzzing; might also be called lightheadedness, or dizzy on the readee's perspective -- I feel it. However lately that too has been going away to only to be felt whenever I read someone. I think that is a good thing though because it is helping my fine tune my skills.
Question 2 What do you call this reading energies?
Question 3: What exactly is the buzzing sensation? I think it might be my energy and the readee says they feel it too. Is it my energy they are feeling whenever we connect? Is it just something that they feel because I ask them what they feel? Does anyone feel the buzzing sensation too whenever they read?
I have also found out that there is a spirit who lives in my house or if he is following me I'm not sure but he used to live in this house and one of the people on here helped me talk to him (I for some reason can't hear entities or what they say) but we both got the same name in our minds as to who the person was. I can't hear what an entity wants from me but I can feel them, pick up what they look like only sometimes and I can feel what their personality is and what they were like in their lifetime.
Question 4: Why can't I hear what the entities want? I can see them speaking in my mind's eye but I can't hear them. Why is that?
SOME OF THE THINGS I HAVE EXPERIENCED IN MY LIFE BEFORE THIS SITE:
I can see spirits with my mind's eye and sometimes with my regular eyes. I have trouble seeing my spirit guides though. The closest I was to seeing them was when I was in the hospital and had to be put under with a drug for minor surgery. Right before I went under and before they put the drug into my system I was being wheeled down there with apprehension I heard or felt my guides being there and they said that they would be there when I woke up. I was not scared after I heard that. I wake up about an hour later and I tell my mom that I'm fine and I want to go home now whenever the drug still had a very good hold on me. I could barely talk straight it was that bad but my brain was working fine. My motor skills however were still heavily impaired. I fell down and was facing my mom and I saw her sitting there with my eyes open then I close them once and I see what I think was one of my spirit guides (her mom, my grandmother) in her place even though it didn't seem I closed my eyes at all because of how real the place looked. It just looked like my mom had been replaced by someone else. I open my eyes again, mom is sitting in place of the spirit guide. Close them again, see all three of my spirit guides. Then I fell back into a dreamless drug-induced sleep.
Question 5: Did I actually see my spirit guides or was it actually just a drug-induced state of whatever?
There is more however but I think that is enough for now please email me at rschroyer09 - at - yahoo.com
I really do need help understanding a bit better if anyone has gone through something similar please help me.
Thank you for your time.