I'm a 29 year old guy and I've been having lucid dreams for about five years, irregularly, I have no method of getting them really but it generally happens if I've woken up early and drop off back to sleep. Some research I have done has made sense about the various stages of sleep. These dreams started happening at the end of a bad relationship when I was stressed out a lot and started off with simple things like sitting in my living room and realizing I was dreaming and then trying to make things happen and wakening up.
Initially, I found it hard to stay in the dream but as I experienced more, I was able to stay in them longer and quite often can stay in them for a while. Until I found this site and started reading, I've not done much more than discuss with friends who have not had the same experiences - because something that happened recently has really frightened me.
I'll talk about a couple of good / strange experiences I've had when in this dream state first, because it's always good to hear from people who have had similar. Once I wanted to know what it felt like to die, as I knew I was dreaming, I shot myself in the head, there was no real sensation of pain or anything, just tingling and I felt like my body was moving and I ended up in a room with an elderly lady and I was quizzing her on the meaning of life etc... She was responding in riddles, it seemed to make sense at the time but upon awakening I had forgotten a lot of what was said and it made no sense to me anyway. Aside from that I wouldn't say any of the experiences have been deeply meaningful, just exploring manipulating the dream state.
However, a few weeks ago, I drifted into a lucid dream state and I started to hear a distorted buzzing noise in my ears and I felt tingly, then I got a sensation like some part of my being was being pulled out of my body, violently. I could make out a voice saying, "This is your evil side". I tried to wake myself up but was paralyzed and listening to this voice repeat that statement another twice before I was able to wake myself up.
In the past 2 years I've had the sensation of being pulled of my body violently when dreaming, sometimes from a lucid state and at other times, just from a light sleep, but as soon as this starts happening I get frightened and try and wake myself. I was trying to fight the urge to wake myself up until the experience with the voice a few weeks ago. Do you think that it is safe and I should pursue trying to fight the urge to wake up when I start to feel like I am leaving my body?
I'm interested in hearing from anyone who has had a similar account.
Thanks for reading my story.