I'm fairly new here (3rd story), have posted a couple of times about general experiences but I am looking specifically for advice from experienced Astral travelers about how they overcame their early anticipations and fears to be able to astral travel.
Quick background on me:
29 year old guy, started noticing infrequent lucid dreams about 5 years ago. Started experiencing sleep paralysis about 3 years ago.
Lucid dreaming I really enjoyed but could never stay in for long initially, through time I am able to hold it longer and do more.
Sleep Paralysis - first started noticing this as a strong vibration and feeling like I was being pulled/forced out of my body, I have always fought this due to fear until recently researching online I stumbled across Robert Monroe and bought his book Journey's Out Of The Body. His early experiences, paralysis and vibrations are very similar to what's happening to me.
I have 2 main fears/issues:
Now, where I'm at now is, sometimes I can go with the vibrations, but more often than not, I get a very serious fear feeling and it very quickly becomes an extremely negative experience I can't go with. I have not as of yet managed to fully separate (to my knowledge) although I have had lucid dreams which could have been a full separation and not just a dream - but I wasn't conscious of it until I woke up.
Be it, negative/scary voices or negative/scary looking images, I always end up having to fight it and wakening up. I think this is because I need to try and get myself in a more positive frame of mind generally, before I attempt to take it further. But is this normal? Can anyone help with anything they have done to overcome the fear?
I have a very active imagination and controlling my mind is difficult, it wanders, so wandering into some negative or fearful thought could happen easily.
The other issue is, after the experience. Whether good or bad, I feel disconnected from the physical reality and almost like I have to fight hard to keep calm and keep my sanity, like I'm right on the edge. Like something that is happening in these experiences is completely contradicting everything I have come to know about life so far and have been taught. This is extremely disconcerting.
I guess what I am looking for is affirmation that other people have went through this as well and have got past it and are still happy (maybe happier?) and sane!
Apologies as this is rather long winded, but I'd be interested in hearing about good and negative experiences and how you over came them.