Talk about living 2 lives, well that's what I do every day.
Excepting I have a gift took me a long time to deal with.
My husband and son on the other hand, think it's silly and will not talk about it.
I Except that as well.
Now things have changed a little when "I told you" came a big statement. A reminder for them not to ignore me when I tell them what feelings I have had about something or someone.
My fear and nightmare was about to unfold in a vision I had about 4 weeks before I got my son his first new car.
I told my sister I could see myself in a black car and I was spinning around and that the steering wheel came out my hands, I started to go backwards then I was in the air but upside down. I then came out of this vision and felt quite sick and shacking with shock.
She asked me if it was a dream? I told her no but I was in bed but not asleep.
She said " just don't get in to a black car then" and then she laughed
Many weeks past and I thought nothing more of it, but now and again I had flash backs to it.
My son lives his life to the full, in work and play.
He has no fear about going for what he wants in life, which is good and I'm proud of him for this.
He became a chef when he was 16 and worked hard to get where he was at a young age.
He passed his driving test just after his 17th Birthday, So my husband and I got him a new car, as a well done for all he has achieved.
His new car was dropped off in work for him as a surprise.
He was over the moon with it.
He made arrangements with his friends to pick them all up so they could go out in his new car.
I then had that sickening feeling that I won't see him tonight.
I told him not to go silly and that he has people in the car with him, Please be careful Chris.
I went to bed that night feeling uneasy, I knew what I had seen is just about to happen.
Mat came to bed and I told him what vision I had weeks before, He said
"your being paranoid maz" Go to sleep.
I dosed off then I woke up shouting "the police are at the door".
Your dreaming go to sleep, he said. "Mat" I said "they will knock and it will be Chris". He turned over and said I was crazy, I'm crying inside knowing I'm right.
A few seconds later a loud knock at the door. I jumped out of bed shouting "it's the police it's Chris".
Mat's getting annoyed with me now, go's to the bedroom window. But I'm already down stairs.
I opened the door to be met by police. " it's Chris, he's had an accident hasn't he"? I said with a shaking voice.
Can we come in Please? The Police ask.
My knees buckle from under me. Mat by this time is behind me and holds me up.
The police begin to tell me what had happened, Then the word critical came from him.
I got my jacket and told the police I need to be with him, please just tell me what hospital he's in.
I got my keys and followed them to the hospital.
He had two other lads in the car with him, One of which was taken to another hospital as he was given CPR.
Chris and his other friend were in a bad way, my son with bad head wounds and his friend with a chest injury.
Thank God they all survived and were home with in 3 day.
It took a week after the accident to get it out of him what happened.
Everything I told my sister and Mat is what he remembers.
What shocked me more than anything was his car reg.
My initials and my date of birth.
(spiritually), I was there with him in that car.
The police and Ambulance men told me, they should of not survived the crash. The car was demolished. Some one was watching over them! The policeman said shaking his head. I told them, Their time is not up yet.
Both lads now have baby's and my son is now in the Army and enjoying every moment. Like I said at the beginning, he enjoys life to the full.