I need help, for the reason of not knowing what purpose I serve. I am not like other psychics, I don't "just" see the future, or past events I was never alive for. I do not "just" see spirits.
What I can do?
Is uncontrollably have blue beams of light shoot from my hand. (not aura)
I can send extensions of my own energy to another stretching miles away, and sometimes accidentally hurt them trying to pull away.
I also have these very, very deep trances in which takes me to an alternate state, (while my body is still in the task of what I am in) And I will strangely envision random things. Such as what I mentioned in my very first post on here, as "Kiame2012."
Can I also recall the night of hearing spirits physically say "She cannot figure out who she is, or we're screwed." when I was 11.
...But who "am" I?
Before I was born, my mom told me the story of how she almost had this forced-over feeling of naming me, "Marie." In which is my name this day. Then, when I "was" a newborn, a cat of ours would feel the need to protect me sleeping during the night, and would be found at my feet each morning. Then to the fact of I remembering dark faces constantly hovered over myself during the night, unable to defend myself. So for the reason, striking, white, bright lights would shoot them away. (Yes, I do have a large memory of what I should not be able to remember.)
Being a child, I was always told "You will begin recognizing your powers, for your special soul will finally begin awakening at age 14."
I never believed such thing.
However, I turned 14, and there did my trances, blue light-beams, sight for the paranormal, sight for the future, feeling of what may come, and all other special abilities morphing as one into one body.
As a 14 year old, I was told of the fact my soul will fully become wide-awake, and responsive at age 16. As to there shall I meet the one to train me.
For being between the ages, (15) all I need is answers. You see, I've been through enough trying to discover "why's" and "how's." I've done 15 years worth of so. Now I need answers in why this begun.
If you are quick to shoot me down because I may not have supplied enough information, I do have other blogs time-accordingly posted, to what I mentioned before.
If you may have answers, or find yourself relevant to my cause, email me at LoveitRockit@yahoo.com
(Please no spam, and take in mind I am 15.)